Friday, October 02, 2015
...could not move my bowels, wipe my ass, and flush the toilet. The plumbing is so inadequate the toilet gets clogged all the time. I need to break down my bodily evacuations into steps to have a functioning toilet. I can only use septic safe toilet paper - and we aren't hooked up to a septic system!
...spent thousands of dollars on heating oil. The eaves are not insulated so any heat just escapes. I tried using plastic sheeting to stop the drafts but it made too much noise to sleep. Most winter nights, I had the heat on, wearing layers, with a space heater.
---have been screamed at and blamed for any repair I need. The toilet needed a gasket and bulb replaced - my fault. A pipe burst in my bedroom after a power outage in the winter, my fault.
...haven't been able to take a long hot shower or bath. The hot water doesn't last more than five minutes in my apartment summer or winter. I can't wash a big batch of dishes at once. During bad parts of the winter, I heat bathing water on my stove.
...have had trouble hanging anything on the walls There is basically no wall, just layer upon layer of crumbling plaster. Thank goodness for command hooks!
...have been told that the cats smell too much and I should get rid of them every single year. According to my landlady's son, my cats are ruining the entire building. This is the same man who trapped poor Rasputin in a room for a day after doing "repairs". This guy also thought my cats eat feces. He's incredibly intelligent.
... had a pit of dread coming home, never had people over, and anxiety attacks.
For liability reasons, I won't post the link but let me say if you see a Craigslist ad for a Quincy apartment that looks too good to be true, it is.
Friday, September 25, 2015
October 10 I am moving to Jamaica Plain! I visited potential roommate's apartment last Sunday and it is simply sweet and gorgeous. It also has central air and heat, a dishwasher, disposal, and in unit laundry. After I scoped the place out, I turned to potential roomie and asked her what did she think and do I get the rose? She said, "Oh yeah, it's basically you." I played coy because I was worried about rushing into a decision just to get out of my shit hole. We sat in the living room, discussed the nitty gritty of sharing, how we shower, food, and then life in general. We wound up talking for 3 hours! Roomie said it was a sign. So I went home, thought for a second, and decided yes. There is another cat so it will be three cats and two humans. At least our remains won't be found come a disaster. Future roomie has a ton of stuff so I'm whittling down what I have. Sayonara mismatched Tupperware and fondue set I used once! I can have a little storage down in the basement so I'm going to stick to a stack of 3 to 4 boxes to store. I booked my good old moving company - Intelligent, Labor, and Moving. They seriously rock. I was told I need to get a moving permit from city hall. I'm not 100% sure what that is but it costs $60. Luckily, I can walk to city hall during a break from work.
This song has been stuck in my head all week:
No surprise that work was nuts. I am part of a mentoring program as a mentee. My mentor is so super awesome and supportive. He has a great reputation - in fact I knew of him before I met him. He was the guy who always submitted correct stuff to HR. This might sound dumb but it almost feels like having a big brother at work - I get stupid excited passing him in hallways and have to actively resist the urge to hug him. He really pulled out all stops this week.
Remember how I have mentioned there is a senior position that will be opening up in my department? That the department director told me that I should apply. Well, I latched onto that dream and excitedly awaited the job posting. Thursday, I was telling Super Boss that recitation about striving for perfection and I ended saying "...and that's why I want to be a senior analyst." He looked at me confused and informed me that I had missed the application deadline. I was stunned standing in his doorway and asked when did it get posted. JULY to AUGUST! Arrrghh! To add insult to injury, he observed, "Yeah, Staffing Lady and I were just saying yesterday that we did not understand why you didn't apply." I responded faintly,"Because I didn't know about it." He face got the red it gets when he's upset and his eyes started to get glisteny so me being me, the oldest, the big sister, pointed at him and ordered him not to feel bad. It wasn't his job to make sure I read every email or walk by the job board. It was all my own damn fault. He started saying, "Maybe I can get Staffing Lady to reopen it -- " I interrupted him not to go above for something that is my own fault. He wailed in frustration, "But I want you to have a chance!" I asked about how to apply and made a beeline to the Ladies room where I full on sobbed in a stall, hand clamped over my mouth making animal noises. I didn't realize all these months of killing myself at work felt worth it if a senior position was out there. I cleaned myself up, went back to my desk to find the job posting email and told Super Boss that I will be tweaking my resume just in case. He responded in such a tired and ashamed voice, "I'm sorry about this."
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Tuesday was such a great day because I had designed a billing process, IT built it, and I saw the demo that day. I informed everyone that it felt like Christmas for me. The meeting was very upbeat and verging on silly. The functionality was there and sure there were a couple tweaks but months ago I imagined it. Now it's real! I also had my first session with my new shrink Tuesday and it went very well.
Saturday, September 12, 2015
2015 in numerology is a 5 year for me. This is what it means and what is scary accurate:
Friday, September 04, 2015
So up to this point, your compensation approvals have been excellent. Unfortunately, [X] had some issues. In many requests, [Y] was missing. In some the [Z] was also missing. In one, the [A] was off by $$. In another the [B] was never corrected.
I don’t know what happened, but I’ll chalk it up to the fact that there were a ton of requests that came in all at once and these required a correcting of the memo on top of addressing the request. I know that you can do this and that you know what to do on these, but I am responsible for making sure this is a successful transition for future HR Analysts which means you need to be on top of your game when approving for Comp. And I know you are great at it because you’ve questioned the exact things you are supposed to on many. And, yes, these do suck up a lot of time, so I am also aware of that. You and I are both perfectionists to some degree, so when I tell you to be more careful, I know I don’t really need to. But I do want to make you aware so that you can be more vigilant for next time...
Isn't that perfect? He didn't want me to spiral and feel discouraged. I have a year under my belt and am pretty confident about my abilities and value at work. Plus, I have this great boss so I can handle anything. I also know I corrected all those things but didn't hit save at the right step.